Last week, HJ went back to work because he had a deadline, and I stayed home semi-alone and took care of BJ! (I say "semi-alone" because technically, BJ and I are at home together.) I thought I would have a hard time, but it actually wasn't too bad. The only thing that I had a difficult time with was taking care of BJ while balancing housework. Needless to say, I did not get a lot of chores or work done... but I had to tell myself that this was okay as long as BJ got cared for. And it is okay. I just have do get a lot more done when either my mom or HJ are here... Speaking of which, HJ is staying home for another two weeks starting today, so I need to finish all of my chores before he goes back to work. I'll be a little sad when HJ goes back to work for good in two weeks, and I'm sure he will be too, but we have to have $$$ to survive, as I'm already taking a leave without pay. *Sigh*
BJ in his car seat (from Amazon.com)... this was his car ride home from the hospital. He hasn't ridden in it much since... read why:
Since HJ will be going to work starting next week, I'm sure I'll have to run errands by myself. Problem is, I still have not tackled the challenge of going out with BJ alone. Even if HJ, BJ, and I go out, we only stay out for, at the most, an hour. Our longest time out was a trip to Wal-Mart and the local supermarket.
The problem is that I have seen the way strangers look at us when BJ is crying in his stroller, and their evil glares make me feel like I am a terrible parent and it scares me to go out alone. At least right now, they can stare at both me and HJ, and I don't feel like it's entirely my fault. It's not like BJ is loud when he screams, but those glares can be pretty brutal. What makes me feel worse is that I used to look at parents and wonder why they couldn't control their screaming kid. Now, I know that sometimes, babies just cry... For example, BJ started crying in Wal-Mart once because he pooped in his diaper. The entire walk to the car to change his diaper, BJ was crying, and we got evil looks the entire way. It felt like I was a criminal.
I'm sure that I will get used to going out with BJ, but that first trip frightens me. Any advice, baby readers???